if only you could give your life to literature, just don't read jane eyre.

so here i find myself on the dear ol' blog of miss marie kill beer.

i should have an alias with the many names which can be created with the current name that i have been given and am known by society.

anyway i've come to let the world wide web know my 100 things to do this winter list. Possibly my great lovely sister will read this, because well she's the only one who does, and give me help on this here list.

let the joy begin.
1.make a snowman
2. massive snowball fight
3. make snow angels
4. catch a snowflake on my tongue
5. go sledding
6. breakfast with Santa
7. watch both verisons of the Grinch
8. bring hot chocolate to friends-you know i make the best
9. hug everyone day
10. make a shirt for tess
11. stay up for three days straight with tess
12. go to club vortex
13. get a college guys number
14. watch elf with jarom hancock
15. make a new friend
16. go to an awesome show-X96 show
17. dress up week
18. knit a scarf for someone
19. work at a soup kitchen
20. sew a dress
21. senior project
22. make music videos with jack hegerman
23. go to an LP basketball game
24. kiss in the snow
25. help two people find romance
26. pass school.
27. perfect the art of doing donuts
28. "everything tess loves" party
29. actually attend a school dance
30. document a day in the life of cyndel
31. get 50 pages in my book-at least
32. become organized
33. start a continuing journal
34. put awesome color in hair
35. bake again
36. learn to save money $
37. make shirts for my friends with my face on it
38. finger paint party
39. get a striped turtleneck
40. watch every episode of the office
41. photo shoot! chelsie, cyndel, steven.
42. get footie jammies
43. make chocolate covered pretzels
44. kiss someone on valentine's day
45. give out awesome valentines
46. read jay's journal
47. throw a party
48. buy something flannel
49. pierce my ears
50. don't talk for an entire day
51. lose my voice
52. get tan :)
53. christmas movie marathon
54. make a tie dye dress
55. get carter and davis to remember my name
56. learn to sew
57. hoilday lights date-carriage
58. carriage ride in SLC--side note-- salt lake utah=SLUT.
59. apply for college
60. winter pool party
61. snow twister
62. take ACT
63. bring soup to a sick friend
64. get so cold that hair freezes
65. stick tongue to a frozen pole
66. hot tub party
67. lay in snow contest
68. stalk someone-ha
69. heart attack someones house
70. get fuzzy socks and tumor beanie
71. wear pajamas all day
72. hide-and-go-seek at ikea
73. go to a stake dance
74. write everyone notes telling them i love them
75. write andrew stott and other missionaries
76. attempt snowboarding
77. make it in the newspaper
78. work out the jarom plan with tess
79. get the used tickets for tess
80. fill someones car with fake snow
81. give money to a hobo
82. go caroling with current songs
83. go to savers with steven
84. hotel party in park city--girl weekend
85. fix friendships
86. ihop with tess at 2 am
87. get a pedicure
88. read books and hang out at starbucks
89. icicles fight
90. campfire in the snow
91. drink gas station hot chocolate
92. make the ultimate sled
93. make an ice rink in my neighborhood
94. visit an old friend
95. make breakfast for a good friend
96. nightgames in the snow
97. give out great presents
98. read to old people or children
99. draw portraits of all my friends
100. fall for someone

thanks for reading.

love <3

[miss cyndel marie]

cyndel marie dodenbier is now in paperback.

I have come to be bothered by my siblings for the rare occasion of me actually writing on this blog of mine. There is a reason, believe it or not. I could not think of the password for the life of me, and really didn't have much to write. So now I sit here typing aimlessly thinking of what great thoughts and commentary I could possible place in this here blog.
What is new in my little life? I am a big bad senior, who really everyday is waiting for the day she can go to college, and get out of the dim lit hallways of lone peak high school. I will graduate someday, even with the dismay of my 'rents. I keep busy with my school work, reading Jane Eyre lately. It is quite d u l l . Other than school I spend my afternoons at my place of business. It changes nearly everyday, but i usually spend it being the Thanksgiving Point candy girl. You'd be surprised how often I am mistaken for being twenty. Frightening. I am a baby.
So you ask what I do for fun?
fun?! I like to play. i am silly at times. i realize i have given up the idea of capitalization, and i acknowledge it's presence, but i am not in the mood to use it. THAT was a total side bar. i play a lot actually. the picture shows little me on halloween. i was a hot air balloon. [i'm hot, i breathe air, and i had balloons] sadly most people thought i was an easter basket, i just said basketcase. so i had to party that night right? i went to this random parking garage dance in provo. UVU students are crazier than i thought. it was an experience. life is filled with many a good one.

well i am tired of writing this nonesense. i want to go eat some thai with my bestest friend chelsie lou.

love you.
thanks for reading.

love

cyn kill beer. {i look like a duck, i am aware}


oh and i love this video. it makes me laugh for days...i am still laughing since i first watched it. and by the way the first time it is always a little frightening, give it a try.

:]
i'm old gregggg.

utah business week...also known as utah baptist week

[yes i'm aware i'm very attractive]
where to start to explain a week in the life of cyndel. well first off i'd like to admit that blogging is quite entertaining. i get to talk about myself while sitting in my basement wearing my pajamas. getting ready? honestly, who does that.

anyway back to the point.

luckily i wrote a day to day log on the happenings of business week for my best friend tess, which should make this blog less difficult to write.
[mountain dew and crackers and cheese night. yum]
LOGAN is in the middle of no where. NO WHERE. i thought that if i went any further i'd fall of the planet. call me an extremist. but actually i found that USU has a pretty nice campus. like our dorms were AMAZING. i loved them. except i was rooming with my friend kim. i love her, but i don't think i've ever heard a more annoying person talk on the phone. all night talking to her boyfriend kinda is a drag. i got to hear all about how she misses his hair. HIS HAIR? what the? but if they're happy. good for them.
oh we bought two bettas. two MALE bettas, we were planning to fight them at the end of the week. Kirsten's was named, old greg-due to the youtube video, and kim and i shared a fish named LARS. so at the end of the week we "fought" the fish. it didn't turn out well. for one we did it in the boys dorm and they didn't fight...so the boys got thinking...so after we left they put the fish in the FREEZER. RIP lars and old greg. :[ they became a fish popcicle.
so hmm...for business week we were set up into groups. COMPANY D DOMS!!! (my company was d...obviously) and there were 8 girls and 4 guys. the girls weren't too fond of me it seemed. maybe because i hung out with only the guys really. oh well. andrew (DJ urban A), sean (SC kristal), taylor (EZ T), and bryan (DOOM) were really awesome boys. they kept me entertained during the many speeches. i was in charge of keeping some of them awake. SEAN.
oh so on monday all the of the EFY kids came. so we had to test them. we told them we were from utah baptist week. they seemed excited to have a missionary experience. we asked them the most untrue things, like how many mothers they had, if they were a cult, asking them if they couldn't do drugs, etc. quite entertaining.
[we're so good looking] [we got bored. i'm like laying on dane. i love DANE.]
[the girlies...i laugh at myself.]
we had to do something to keep ourselves entertained. we had speakers for like five hours a DAY. thats why too long to just sit there. BUT it was funny to see the blendtec guy blend a rake. it can't even blend a strawberry. WHAT IS THIS?
i think the most entertaining part of business week was the fact that people thought sean and i were a couple. it cracked me up. like an advisor even asked us if we were a couple. can you say awkward? it was awesome. apparently girls and guys can't just be friends anymore.
hmm...what else to say? OH CHADLEY JONES. he was our company advisor. i loved him so much. he had been going to business week for a long long time. and he told us that my company was by far the flakiest group he's ever had. i was proud. but in our defense we won the logo and radio competitions. DANG STRAIGHT. he was just a funny guy. he told us all about how he was "banished" to utah when he was a teenager. how is that for punishment? [on the bus to wescor]
ESCAPE! we got to escape campus for an hour. it was awesome...well you'd think. we all went to local companies. the other groups on my bus went to a bakery and got bread, and went to a dairy and got ice cream. guess where we went? a medical supply company that looks like it hasn't been changed at all since 1977. it smelled and there were wood paneling on the walls. somewhat a disappointment [the crew....breeana, me, matt, brijette, alli, kirsten , and chris. don't we look excited?] [lady of the dance] [breeana, me, and kirsten jay. it looks like a rave]

RACE DAVIES CALLED ME TIPSY. i don't think i've laughed so much. then again i don't blame him. kirsten and i kinda got into the dance. but it surprised me that nerdy kids can actually dance. AND someone stepped on my foot. LARGE bruise. was it a large person? i'm not aware.my favorite was the last dance on friday night. TOGAS. enough said.
hmm...there is more to write, but i'm not in the mood to write it.
[the return]
thanks for reading.
love
cyn.

birds and bees and televisions; cardboard boxes and x-ray vision.

according to my sister my last blog was "the Seinfeld's about blogs." she finds me a little funny, but i presume she's got a point. also i bet she's gnashing her teeth by the fact i'm not using the correct capitalization and i'm well aware of the fact. but if you look at the writing of my fellow teenagers my age you'd think i'm a genius, which phrases spelled like...

"WTF? wht up bby grl. idk lol (: ur sooo kewl."

i think i just threw up. when did the use of vowels go out of fashion? then again misspelled words must make you look super attractive. we should all just start talking in text message from now on. like say LOL verses actually laughing out loud.

LOL LIME.

anyway...thats my little spill on what i think of that.

you know what is gross? i missed out on a ton of fun last night and you know what i did instead. LAID IN BED SICK. that is just disgusting. not being able to sleep or get up and not being able to eat and just laying there in silence. i thought i was going to die. miss martinez, my love, claims that i have mono, then again that is what she's said for months. possibly she may be right-but knowing my mother i'll never make it to the doctor to even find out.
BUT
the good news is that i feel better.

i'm in the mood for camping. who couldn't love camping? i guess there could be SOMEONE, but they're not any fun. the mountains make me feel good, even if i usually get sick. how does that even work? the world is an imperfect place.

i'm full of random thoughts. i need to work on my 100 things to do this summer list.
1. photo shoot (done)
2. mermaid party at the gateway
3. house party
4. friends theme in fountains
5. make a birthday cake
6. plant a tree
7. make friendship bracelets
8. food fight
9. water fight (done)
10. tube down provo river
11. have a lemonade stand
12. make a movie
13. make a music video
14. crowd surf
15. play huge night games
16. go on a walk and eat popcicles (done)
17. MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK (done)
18. feed ducks
19. go to animal shelter
20. t.p. someone's house (done)
21. roller disco
22. dress up and go to jack and jill's
23. blair witch project in the mountains
24. bonfire (done)
25. kiss in the rain
26. make a friend (done)
27. send someone a card
28. roast marshmallows (done)
29. super glue quarters to walmart floor
30. dye hair outrageous color
31. climb a tree (done)
32. make clothes
33. 80s movie marathon
34. build a rocket
35. play dress up
36. have a tea party
37. dance party at home depot
38. try every snow cone flavor
39. meet someone famous (done)
40. tie dye party
41. dance in the pouring rain
42. road trip (done)
43. go to savers with steven
44. fingerpaint
45. stalk someone-ha (done)
46. build a fort/clubhouse (done)
47. scary movie night
48. dress like a hobo
49. gateway (done)
50. build a sandcastle
51. gallon challange
52. ice cream eating contest
53. stay up for 48 hours
54. board games at 2 am
55. thanksgiving point gardens (done)
56. water twister
57. learn to long board
58. hang out with mark
59. deliver cookies
60. go to the zoo
61. find/meet david
62. fry an egg outside
63. swimming at steven's
64. fireworks and watermelon (done)
65. burn people's clothes (done)
66. wish upon a star (done)
67. buy a fish and name him franklin
68. watch IT five times in a row
69. fly a kite (done)
70. have a picnic
71. blow bubbles (done)
72. let balloons go (done)
73. pancake party
74. get really tan
75. get a lagoon workers number
76. do sky coaster
77. senior project
78. hold someone's hand that starts with the letter A
79. fix a friendship (done)
80. dress like a superhero
81. camp on birrell's porch
82. run from cops
83. get a new hairstyle
84. go to DI
85. plan a major date
86. plan a birthday party
87. put soap in a fountain
88. go around costco five times
89. JUNGLE JIMS
90. dance in public (done)
91. frolic and gather flowers
92. learn graffiti
93. make a new language
94. play with puppies (done)
95. hide-and-seek at ikea
96. learn to love angela
97. tell everyone i see i love them
98. get burnt on the hammock
99. drive by compliments
100. fall for someone

anyone want to help me? i'm realizing the dreadful thought that summer isn't as long as it once was.

i'm sick of staring at the screen.
there must be something better to do with my life...possibly not.

love you.

cyn.

blogging.

the blog on blogging. slightly repetitive i must say, but really at times i can be very repetitive. i'm new to this whole blogging world, which i really didn't know existed. but really is there much to say at 12:33 a.m.

i'm afraid not.

and honestly will anyone really read this.

i'm afraid not.

that fact still makes this whole thing more intriguing because basically i can write whatever i feel. sadly at the moment i have not very much to say, but for making a blog, i actually need to write something correct? and this must be it.

thanks for reading.
write something better at a later date.

love you always.
cyn.